RANDOM THOUGHTS

Many random things have been going on in my head. From life to friendships, money and career, relationships and the future so on so forth. Sitting in the bus today I looked at my environment especially the faces of the other occupants: from the driver to that little girl going to school. Did I mention that twice now I have managed to catch the first bus-you should see the smile on my face to understand the immense pleasure it gives me. The driver today was rather in a foul mood. He kept on shouting expletives to the conductor and seemed liked he did not want to pick or drop passengers at the designated stops. Ironically the conductor who is usually in a foul mood was in a very good mood. Maybe that was an inside joke-reversed mood. The passengers in the bus basically describe to me the world. It carries all kinds of people. A distraught teenager, struggling single parents, a conman(or woman), a prowler, a student, a mother, a father, a daughter as in all kinds of people with different stories of their lives to tell. If am to write a book one day, I will have to call it the bus there is so much to write about right there.

Sitting in traffic I admire the cars. Although the traffic right now is quite light(trust me I can qualify for a night runner) I notice the guzzlers. Yes I am a big girl forgive me for loving the big cars. I understand that CEOs and CFOs go to work at that time of the morning so I quietly whisper to myself while patting my back girl you will get there one day you sure will get there and I nod my head to affirm it. I stop just in time to notice the fishy look from the person sitting next to me. Who doesn't want to live the good life? I do! But one thing worries me, how do I get there? Will I sleep my way there, cheat, murder, exploit someone, con or plain hard work. I think I will choose the last option its better though tough but God said it when He chased Adam and Eve from the garden, to survive you have to work and hard work it is.

I believe everything we do everyday or set to do and accomplish is by God's grace. I mean how many people plan about the next move and it is no more or worse they are no more? You enter the bank and its robbed while you are inside, you enter a vehicle with both limbs and come out with one or without even your life? Yaani these are the truths you have to live with daily, the eventualities of life. Well the mantra one should live with is live every minute like its your last. Just do what you would have loved to do and do it to your very best.

Something else crossed my mind, when do you draw the line? When do you know this is it. This is the line that shall not be crossed by me or by anyone else for that matter. In life I have learnt to draw the lines sometimes I let people cross them which is unfortunate but I do believe everything starts from somewhere.
Well no more crossing lines or letting people cross them. Speaking of crossing lines, I think a man has crossed the line if he gossips. I usually consider gossiping a woman's gift from God (pun intended). If a man reaches such extents I think its high time brother you put a skirt. Why should it involve you whatever happens in another household that is if its not your NEXT DOOR neighbour or your family friend. Seriously you need to get a life and while at it get some balls too.

This morning was a tough one. I did have a hard time AGAIN getting out of bed. God knows how badly I wanted to just hit the shower and leave for work but something inside of me I don't what to get my lazy self from bed and put on my tracks and get working. I chose to do the latter I went out and did my workout and now (drum rolls) DAY 6. I also cant believe myself but I must say MISS I AM PROUD OF ME. Six days for someone who has been out of the game for one and a half years is no joke. At the back of mind as I was debating of to do or not to do it just hit me you know what, this might just be the beginning of so many tomorrows. I don't want to go back there I made I choice I want to stick with it.