To be honest the title might have nothing to do with this post but I did have a hard time getting a title so there it goes. Ok plus I had a hard time getting up in the morning today. Good thing is once I started exercising I felt like I should go on and on and on. So am glad I did not choose to stay in bed longer. I intended to sleep as early as 8:30 p.m but I think I retired at 9:30 p.m that is a whole hour later. Am trying to change my sleeping pattern so that I don't stay up late and end feeling hungry and I start snacking. I am trying to do away with noise just before I sleep. To be honest its a huge task but I have to try I want to get into the habit of reading before bed and do away with a lot of T.V.
I have become a T.V junkie and this is definitely not good for me. If I go back to school it will be an uphill task trying to get in touch with my books so since I intend to do so I better start now and am sure I will ace through schoolwork. I have books that I intend to start reading while some are halfway read so my target is to finish reading them before the end of the year. I do make handmade cards and it has been awhile since I did that. The more I sit on this talent that God gave me the more I feel it will be taken away or I will end up not fitting in with the times. So I am also picking up my hobby where I left. Here is a sneak peak of my previous works. Wish me luck with my new endeavour.
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The other thing am having a hard time with is trust. I didn't realize this until recently. It was subconscious but am glad I have come to realize it. Trust like they say is like a mirror, once broken you don't at it the same way you did before. You have to throw that one out and bring in a new one. Start a fresh. I have my fair share of trust issues with men and women alike. I worked on the one with men at least the men in my life are helping me with that as for the women it is work in progress and I do like the steps I have made so far. For the women it felt like every time I try getting a new mirror it keeps getting broken but I am trying to keep buying them. I know it is expensive but no man is an island so I keep giving it a try. What is the worst that can happen anyway if I keep trying to trust? I think the worst thing is not trusting at all that is the biggest headache anyone can suffer.
Am on to day 5 of my exercising regime and let me just say this far I have come I thank God for the zeal he has put in me. He has renewed my commitment to being committed and I am grateful. So yesterday in the evening as I walked to my house I met some ladies exercising and I felt so proud of myself. Previously I would meet them and I would say to myself I wish I had time to do that. The problem was I had the time but I was just not willing to do it. Its good that I came to that realization in good time before its too late. Yesterday maternal instincts came to me so strongly and I thought am I ready? Is there the right time really? When is the right time? One thing is for sure though, I don't think my body is ready. If I am to walk down that road I need to be prepared well at least physically. the rest will fall into place in due time.
I have become a T.V junkie and this is definitely not good for me. If I go back to school it will be an uphill task trying to get in touch with my books so since I intend to do so I better start now and am sure I will ace through schoolwork. I have books that I intend to start reading while some are halfway read so my target is to finish reading them before the end of the year. I do make handmade cards and it has been awhile since I did that. The more I sit on this talent that God gave me the more I feel it will be taken away or I will end up not fitting in with the times. So I am also picking up my hobby where I left. Here is a sneak peak of my previous works. Wish me luck with my new endeavour.
https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.1785110304278.103058.1135120904&type=1
The other thing am having a hard time with is trust. I didn't realize this until recently. It was subconscious but am glad I have come to realize it. Trust like they say is like a mirror, once broken you don't at it the same way you did before. You have to throw that one out and bring in a new one. Start a fresh. I have my fair share of trust issues with men and women alike. I worked on the one with men at least the men in my life are helping me with that as for the women it is work in progress and I do like the steps I have made so far. For the women it felt like every time I try getting a new mirror it keeps getting broken but I am trying to keep buying them. I know it is expensive but no man is an island so I keep giving it a try. What is the worst that can happen anyway if I keep trying to trust? I think the worst thing is not trusting at all that is the biggest headache anyone can suffer.
Am on to day 5 of my exercising regime and let me just say this far I have come I thank God for the zeal he has put in me. He has renewed my commitment to being committed and I am grateful. So yesterday in the evening as I walked to my house I met some ladies exercising and I felt so proud of myself. Previously I would meet them and I would say to myself I wish I had time to do that. The problem was I had the time but I was just not willing to do it. Its good that I came to that realization in good time before its too late. Yesterday maternal instincts came to me so strongly and I thought am I ready? Is there the right time really? When is the right time? One thing is for sure though, I don't think my body is ready. If I am to walk down that road I need to be prepared well at least physically. the rest will fall into place in due time.
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