FEAR

Today the writing bug has bitten me. Let me write it before I experience yet another block.

That numbing feeling you get that cripples you when you think of doing something that is out of your niche or zone. Yes that terrible feeling that you would rather not feel, that is FEAR. Fear has a way of making you not achieve anything or experience anything. It has a way on conjuring emotions that you wish were left hidden and buried, it has a way of baring us naked and leaving one vulnerable beyond your wildest thoughts.

I have to admit I have been a victim of fear far too many times I have lost count. I have been a victim of fear right from childhood through to adulthood.  That moment when you thought you knew an answer but thought about the class reaction if it was wrong and voila the teacher says that was the answer. That moment as an adult you develop feelings for someone but fear disclosing it because you fear rejection and then when they move on you find out the feeling was mutual? How many opportunities have you lost because you want to think things through? I am not saying thinking critically is bad or weighing options is bad but this is when you create a vacuum and fear starts creeping in. It is at this point that you decide that familiarity is better to handle than unknown territories. And you chose to sit there waiting for things to change by themselves and yet fear crippled you to the extent of death. Death in your thoughts, imaginations, goals dreams?

Unfortunately fear creeps in unawares and it therefore takes conscious efforts to fight it and for this reasons today I chose to fight fear. I chose to face it, I chose to risk and learn from it. I believe in all aspects of life you can not lose it all because experience can and is the most rewarding teacher of all. I don’t want to live a life of what ifs I want to live a life of heck I have done that.

So next time you want to walk the well travelled path remember sometime walking in the woods is healthy you will meet the occasional bear and you will learn how to coexist with it if not to kill it.

Live everyday fearlessly, live as if it is your last day.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

I know its well in to the New Year but hey they say it is never too late. Happy New Year to you too. As the year began I promised myself albeit silently that I will pen something here every month even just once. Lets just say January is gone and I have not put even a single word down. To say am embarrassed is an understatement. But then again I did not write down the resolve so I can get away with it.

I like to write things down especially something I promise to do or to achieve that way I easily keep myself accountable. If you want to know procrastination come and have a look at my wardrobe *hangs head in shame. I have pushed organizing it to tomorrow let’s just say tomorrow has become a phrase like the one commonly used by Kenyan politicians to claim that the leaders of tomorrow are the youth.

My wardrobe however always serves as a lesson to me a constant reminder of how things can turn out to be if you keep postponing what is to be done now. First you can’t keep track of things secondly you become comfortable with the status quo. The abnormal becomes normal.

I like to believe a New Year, a new month or a new day is a chance to begin all over again. A chance to make amends, a chance to start a fresh on a clean slate. A chance to rewrite your story, to set new goals, and to rethink your ambitions. So here is to a chance to look at that list of goals and plans and rewrite them not because you can’t but because you can do better.

So here is a chance for me to go and organize that wardrobe.

HAPPY NEW YEAR folks, scratch that happy new month and oh happy new day.