While I have been away wrapped up in my own world being selfish, so much has happened around me. Somethings happened some least bothered while others shook me to the core.
I friend of mine was sick and I mean really really sick but am glad that now she is so so much better. That gal just used to make my day. Such a ball of energy so many things going for her. In my life I have come across ambitious people but she takes the cup. I have just realized I have surrounded myself with very many ambitious people. Is it a good thing you ask? Yes it is. They challenge me and that works for me. I love challenges and when I see them achieving what they put their hearts to it makes something in me tick. It makes me want to keep going. I am proud of this gals and dudes. Yes the ambitious ones the ones who decided a long time ago that satisfaction and comfort are their WORST enemies.
Sometimes I can be selfish sometimes I feel like I let people walk all over me. I felt a lot of this mixed feelings quite often recently. I feel lost. I need to find myself again. To find those little things that made me me. Those things that make me tick. I don't derive joy or happiness from other people or things, these things should come from within. So while I am busy trying to get all this figured out another bombshell is dropped.
Another friend is sick. Diagnosed with ovarian cancer stage 4. Yes stage 4. Here I am trying to find myself my worth and values oblivious of what is going on around and a close person is going through so so much. I feel sad that at such a young age cancer can sneak up to you. I wish I can do something for her. She did a lot for me. She may not know but she did. She encouraged and challenged both at the same time. I pray that she get better and she manages to raise the funds she needs for her treatment because she is a beacon for so many people she has interacted with. The least I can do is to hope that she reads this and knows she touched someones life some where beyond what she thinks.
For a minute I will take a step back and leave my cocoon where I have been all wrapped up and appreciate what is happening around me and just say thank you God for the little because sometimes I don't think I deserve them.
I friend of mine was sick and I mean really really sick but am glad that now she is so so much better. That gal just used to make my day. Such a ball of energy so many things going for her. In my life I have come across ambitious people but she takes the cup. I have just realized I have surrounded myself with very many ambitious people. Is it a good thing you ask? Yes it is. They challenge me and that works for me. I love challenges and when I see them achieving what they put their hearts to it makes something in me tick. It makes me want to keep going. I am proud of this gals and dudes. Yes the ambitious ones the ones who decided a long time ago that satisfaction and comfort are their WORST enemies.
Sometimes I can be selfish sometimes I feel like I let people walk all over me. I felt a lot of this mixed feelings quite often recently. I feel lost. I need to find myself again. To find those little things that made me me. Those things that make me tick. I don't derive joy or happiness from other people or things, these things should come from within. So while I am busy trying to get all this figured out another bombshell is dropped.
Another friend is sick. Diagnosed with ovarian cancer stage 4. Yes stage 4. Here I am trying to find myself my worth and values oblivious of what is going on around and a close person is going through so so much. I feel sad that at such a young age cancer can sneak up to you. I wish I can do something for her. She did a lot for me. She may not know but she did. She encouraged and challenged both at the same time. I pray that she get better and she manages to raise the funds she needs for her treatment because she is a beacon for so many people she has interacted with. The least I can do is to hope that she reads this and knows she touched someones life some where beyond what she thinks.
For a minute I will take a step back and leave my cocoon where I have been all wrapped up and appreciate what is happening around me and just say thank you God for the little because sometimes I don't think I deserve them.
