TEMPORARY INSANITY

Yes. Temporary insanity. I plead guilty some temporary insanity.

Over the last 3 or 4 weeks I was insane. I thank God though it was temporary. Some close friends tried to intervene but to no avail.

I was either waiting for that last straw or it was a culmination of events or I just snapped out of it. Maybe the Mathare escapees experienced the same too. Snapped out of it or the drug just wore off. It is funny how some realizations dawn on us. What is funnier is it takes one simple thing for you to notice all is not well.

For me the cookie literally crumbled. I know this is a saying but it is exactly what happened. The cookie crumbled and I was left with crumbs. It took an out of body experience to see what a puppet I had become and the puppeteer was merciless with his tact. Making me bend even beyond my own imagination, and yes, puppets too have minds of their own. At the end of it all I felt taken advantage of and taken for a ride.

All this time an inner voice whispered gal you can do better than this, what is this all about? My friends came with their voices of reason but hell no I did not heed to their advice. It took me to step out of myself and look at myself from outside, from a stranger’s point of view.  That is when it dawned me I should quit playing games, set standards have objectives and goals and get on with life on a serious note.

Sadly I have realized but in good time though that if you have no standards you will accept anything and I think that is the worst thing to ever happen to anyone. It was a much deserved break, a good distraction but now moving on swiftly lets get down to serious business. Project go through the ideal list is what I will spend the remainder of the month doing. Tweaking some things here and there while striking some off the list as with time our goals and objectives tend to change too.

Wish me luck.